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I Love You SoI love you so
And it's sad you know
But what makes things worse
Is I'm trapped and cursed
Because you can't see
Things the same as me
And while you disappear
I'll still be right here
My head against the door
Always wanting more
After you've moved on
Because you were strong
You turned the lock
And the key's been forgot
Yet I'm handcuffed here
Because I lived in fear
And now I have to watch
You go run off
With some other girl
Though you're my whole world
upholsteryI hate insomnia. And I hate anxiety. I hate how they act as if I can control this, that if I try hard enough, I can eradicate this hell in an instant like it's controlled by some tangible button. I hate how they don't understand. They punish me for things that are out of my reach. I want to sleep but my body won't let me: it racks me with yawns yet refuses to keep me calm enough to slip away. My brain, that twisted little organ, keeps manufacturing scenarios that keep me awake; it mixes your voice with my fear and the shrill static of radio signals, the chemical burns of poorly developed photographs, schlopsing along in disturbed psychadelia. And all the while my heart pounds at the slightest mention of you, pulsing adrenaline through tender veins like Nirvana journeying through earbud wires. I crave your attention, for a taste of your narcolepsy so I can finally sooth this unbearable itch which keeps me from overcoming your obstacle. Constantly I find myself tugging at the stitching t
confession you are all i ever wish,i ever dream
you are all I ever desire,from my passion flames
you can create and start a fire...but will turn you in cold
and my heart is still " in hold"...
I wish you will be still mine,i make mistakes
if you are not by my side...
I could not breath-feeling the past-my heart is on hold
but my love will ever last,and if tomorrow strarts without me...
Can you feel the lost...can you even see?...
with the sadness-I change my mind- that the love i need
I will never fin
I BrokeI Broke
I broke last night.
I couldn't fight
the pain inside
and I lost my pride.
I fell into tears,
giving way to my fears.
Wondering if he'd stay
or if today was the day
when things went from bad
to worse; to make me sad.
I began to lose hope
and through pain couldn't cope.
Everyone thinks I'm being a goof,
but pain comes along and *poof*.
Down came my wall
as I began to fall
into the depths of despair
and there is no hope there.
No longer knowing what to do,
I prayed that it was true,
that God's promise will reign
and there will be an end to this pain,
that things will be alright
even in the night.
PainUnbearable down to the last bone,
This body I don't want to call home,
I am not feeling alright this way,
I am not happy or feeling okay,
I am in pain and always feeling under,
I feel like my body is torn asunder,
So tired, I want to open my eyes,
My muscles feel bound by weights and ties,
So sick, in pain, and tired aside,
I want so badly to erase this I cried,
All I want to do is sleep my days away,
To keep my feelings left at bay,
Not just the mental but the physical state,
This body of mine, I am starting to hate,
The way I feel is becoming a stain,
I feel I will forever be in pain.
AnankeI have come to confess
When I lay in darkness
I can't find any rest
For the pain in my chest
I still see you in chains
The blood boils in my veins
The lust shines in my eyes
Your Hell: my Paradise!
At the end of daylight
When I pray for delight
I watch in the fire
My only desire
All my senses aflame
At the thought of your name
Will soon drive me insane
I must meet you again!
See me down on my knees
I am begging you, please
Let me caress your skin
Taste the pleasure of sin
But your heart is so kind
And so dark is my mind
So cursed is my passion
My own self-destruction
And your eyes...
Tormenting my heart
And your cry...
Tearing me apart
And your voice...
Enchanting my ears
And your words...
Awaking my tears
And your face...
Corrupting my soul
And your fate...
Inciting my fall
My emotions seem all out of order
and it's like I'm on the border
of anger and sadness.
This is pure madness.
I can't control how I feel
when this pain is so real.
I can't seem to shake
the memories that keep me awake
all through the night.
I pray that things will be alright.
Maybe I'm just hormonal,
but this doesn't seem that normal.
I want to be able to smile
and stay joyful for a while.
Trust is also an issue for me;
loyalty seems like something I can't see.
In God I have faith
that my heart is safe
although it's not anywhere near whole
and loneliness is taking its tole.
Yet, despite these emotions,
God's love is wider than all oceans
and I know that one day I can feel love
like God's above.
El pensar del pensamiento.Pensar antes de pensar,
porque los pensamientos influyen en nuestro sentir,
que influye a la vez a nuestro corazón,
el corazón a la personalidad,
la personalidad en el carácter,
el carácter en nuestra razón y
... la razón en nuestra acción.
Mr.Barman (drunk)Hey Mr. Barman
Sing me a song
Sing about why i an in here
Even though none of us really know
Is already high night
Do not be so harsh
That would make me feel so right
It does not need to rhyme
It does not need not be to seen nice
Just drink some wine
And join me in the chooooooooooooooooooooorus
She does not needs to have assonance
Sense , dignified , verses
You just need to treat her weeeeeeeeeeeellllllll
It does not needs no me-lody
Makeup, dresses, voice
She is already perfect
Be my friend
Promises are emptylooking away
my heart is pained
why do they go away?
I want them to stay
confusion in my head
snakes inside my stomach
the light of the day is fading
storms keep rolling by
squinting for something to hold on too
as it slowly dissapears
promises are empty
the speed of the brain is slow
mixing and matching the patterns
I can understand why it would seem too hard
feet that keep walking
fists that keep punching
mouth that keeps slowly stretching into a smile
smile, smile for me!
please, dont leave me
dont you know what happens when I'm all alone?
slowly strumming the guitar sadly
to the movement of your emptiness
Cycle of a Broken HeartDusk welcomes the burial of my perfectly good heart
Shattered without even the chance for love to start
For the one single soul it yearned for most
Didn't notice and claimed a new host
Midnight stars console my depress'ed soul
Keeled over, teary-eyed, in it's giant hole
Wishing that I was the one he chose
To have and to hold, his delicate rose
Morning sunrise welcomes a new beau
The cushion to fall back on which softens the blow
He is the refuge I take comfort in
Though not as passionate as that first sin
Afternoon cycles such indecision
Which do I stay with, who I love within?
The one who has already been stolen
Or the one who I have started to console in?
The dusk once again returns with it's sorrow
The sun asleep before the come of tomorrow
And so the cycle endlessly courses
Until I, too, am buried beneath with the corpses
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